It comes up repeatedly... the whole issue surfaces over and over. Ancient and worn, it is carried in the cells of my marrow... deep in the bones. It begs the same question over and over... plaguing me with pains, physical and otherwise. Not tremendous physical pain, just gnawing aches born of carrying something for so long. An antiquity in itself, kept alive in history books and novels and now available on dvd.... the emotional pain burns deep and strong.
With its cellular awareness nagging me.... I am given to wonder what it is that could turn the heart's of humanity to the place where they could burn another alive. What fear, what loss of love could turn a heart to such a thing?
Alien to me, this thought is burned in my memory banks... replaying a program that cannot be over-written... it has to be dumped.
As I watch the flames grow, the heat on my skin is nothing compared to the loss of air around me. What little air there is is hot and dry, burning me from the inside out... There are no tears for the heat has sucked them out of me. But now, the tears flow... compassion mingled with pain begs forgiveness for self and others.
There is alot more I will do to heal this ancient ache, and I do it with the faith that once led an army. Each breath in will no longer burn with the collective fears of humanity... we have risen and shall continue our spiral outward.... dumping old patterns into the void.
I love you all!
PH Sky