Past life influences

It seems I had bought the idea of ‘atonement’ as an inevitable state of being, a self-inflicted penance for a failure I had invented. The self-designed punishment led me to kneel in the shadow of others who could apparently sense my willingness to atone. While not exactly hiding my light under a bushel, I did manage to allow it to be dimmed by the darkness of others. These dark others were always ones who relied on my willingness to serve, often draining my reserves and poisoning the joy that I felt in being of service. Their envy, jealousy and self-hatred tainting the waters of my life; it plagued me over and over, causing me to repeat the pattern of self-abandonment for several lifetimes. But a self-actualized Powerful Human cannot live in a toxic environment and that lesson has finally been learned. The behavior could not be unlearned; it had to be understood so that I could begin to make better choices.
A Powerful Human does not have power bestowed from an external source; it is a force that glows from within. A Powerful Human acts from that illuminated center and practices forgiveness of self as a stepping-stone to success. A Powerful Human does not carry those who are too lazy to walk. A Powerful Human is a way-shower who will lend a hand but not one who will be drained by the callous disregard of those whose sense of entitlement obliterates their humanity. A Powerful Human does not fear standing in their own light shining with Love’s radiance. A Powerful Human owns their own power.