Events and Triggers

The Sun's annual passage over my Sun, Moon and Venus..... known by Astrologers as a "transit"... has been quite powerful this year. All 3 of those major planets in my birth (natal) chart are extremely close to each other, separated by only minor degrees and they pack a mighty influence into a small space. The Moon sits in my 6th house of service and predisposes me to work as a source of emotional outlet.... I love to serve, it's the main reason I spent almost 30 years in food service. The Sun, Venus and Mercury all sit in my 7th house of close personal partnerships, ranging from love to business. They are all in the sign of Taurus... a sign of patience beyond human limits, Taureans are natural caregivers, loyal friends and steadfast partners.
With the Sun in the place it is, I experience a very challenging aspect from Pluto, who is the ruler of my chart (Scorpio rising). As this as yearly transit occurs, the tension is quite intense. Pluto calls for transformation of the energy, thereby enabling growth. It is growth that is always hard-won and always involves other people (7th house). And the scenario is generally the same... with variations on a theme. There is inevitably a breach of confidence involved... or there are glaring discrepancies between parties that I am involved with, placing me in a position where I do not know who to believe because in my complete naivete, I tend to believe what people tell me. I mean I don't fall for out and out bullshit, but I tend to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I remember what it was like to feel so insignificant that I had to fabricate stories about myself to justify my existence.
So here I sit, one week after my 59th birthday... watching the same experience play out with different players and I am left to wonder what lesson I am missing. I don't violate confidences anymore... it's been decades since I fell prey to that behavior. I still hold to the reality that when there is a glaring difference in 2 individual perspectives of a story, only the 2 involved will know the truth. The only lesson that strikes any chord resonates with my desire to run off and seclude myself from human behavior. I feel no stress from birds, animals, plants, insects... only from humans. But that is not a feasible possibility for the call to serve is strong and as an individual who's call to service is evident in more than one way, I must honor what I came here to do. So I shall follow the advice given to me many Moons ago; I will be in the world, but not of it. My detachment is a safety net, the lifeline that will keep me sane until the Sun moves into Leo this July.... then I will duck and cover.